Losing weight is difficult

Konichiwa!! Hahaha trying to use Japan caz very soon I'll be flying over there! Excited!!!! :D But haha okay back to why I'm here. I think I'm just gonna continue blogging...... whenever I want to and feel like it. Hahahahaha. Lately I've been, I've been losing sleep... I have a lot of things on my mind recently. I don't know where to start now. Okay, let's just start with yesterday.

Yesterday, Yaoman and I went out to exchange money. Chinatown really has the best rates no joke. And there's a lot of money exchangers there (if that's what you call it)... Anyway, so we went to Chinatown, found out which shop has the best exchange rate and like young toddlers hiding food from their siblings, while drawing out our money to exchange, we looked so suspicious and panicky. We were dam afraid that our money would get stolen. xD Caz afterall, it's quite a huge sum of money. So after drawing our money, we hid it in secret compartments of our bags and hugged our bags to the money exchanger to exchange it for yen. Then after that, we headed off to Orchard to shop. Mango was on sale! We both managed to buy the a pullover. The same one in the same exact COLOUR and SIZE for $19. xD Then I found out that I could use my atm card to pay money. Lol, I think the person at the counter and Yaoman must be judging me. xD After that, we walked to Abercrombie & Fitch (A&F), the shop with astronomical prices and strong perfume smell everywhere inside it. Of course, it took us less than 10 minutes to walk 1 round caz there wasn't any sales and no sales = not afforable. So out we went. Then we walked to Somerset, where I bought a large supposedly $11 Garrett popcorn for only $5 caz I had the discount coupon. So after that, we went back to Tampines and when we were walking home, right outside T1, we were stopped by a promoter promoting London Weight Management package. At first YM didn't want to entertain her caz she thought it was the expensive promotion deals thingy. But after the promoter told us about it, $10 for a treatment, and if we did it on the spot, another FREE treatment!! Lol, sounds too good to be true but yeah, we went for it. The promoter kept saying we very on. xD I think so too caz YM was quite enthusiastic about it and I'm like, it sounds good so I'm okay!!
Woah, I tell you. When we went in right, they separated Yaoman and I into 2 rooms, and tried to convince us to buy their package. They said $300 only for us caz we're students! $300 for 5 sessions!!! But their art of persuasion was so strong I almost almost got convinced. It's because I feel like it's quite worth it. Then the promoter still told us 1 session can lose at least 2kg??!! It was all a lie seriously. But of course, we just went through the treatment. I felt it was super uncomfortable caz I didn't like showing my body to people caz I feel like I'm fat. And my so-called 'consultant' kept telling me all that's wrong with my body to make me feel even worse. She somehow said I'm fat, which I also know. I'm super heavy and especially this year, partially caz of A's, I gained 5kg. What-the-hell. And she said I'm like quite firm and bulky so quite hard to lose. Then she started explaining a lot of things to me, mostly centered on what I can stand to "gain" (more like lose....fats lol) if I buy the package. Then I was like.. erm I consider first. Haha but they're nice la, just that... i don't have the money. But so anyway, the treatment was kinda horrible for me. Caz I can't stand being in steamy rooms, lying on hot beds with my arms unable to move, staying in the same position for 30mins. I really can't stand it. When she said I'm left with 10mins, it felt like eternity. >< But luckily, I managed to survive. After I came out of the hot blanket room, I felt abit nauseous. Then I rest for awhile before bathing. I like their bath robe though. xD But yeah, after the treatment, we took height and weight again. I only lost like 0.5kg??? And that's water weight only I think. Caz today when I went to measure, it went back up again. T_T I don't know how I can ever lose weight back to original even, not to mention less than that. After the treatment, Yaoman and I still went to eat dinner, which was quite filling for me. Haizz..... I'm super heavy. Like 5kg heavier than her. How do I lose it. Also, my consultant told me not to exercise already caz I'm firm. But if I don't then how to lose weight??!! Diet ah. Maybe. That's why I've decided, starting from this week onwards, I need to go jogging every alternate day or something. Then eat lesser and healthier. Haizz... But i don't want to become bulky and firm and buff though. I want to become skinny, even if it means the skin and bones kind. T_T Help me please....... Yesterday's incident has seriously made me thought a lot. Maybe I should do something to my body instead of accepting it and giving up. Caz something can be done I believe. I just hope I'm doing the right thing and not exacerbating it. Give me a solution, heaven. Help me please.